Round Three

It has been a long while since I last published on this blog. So much has changed in my life that I can actually see the lasting effects. I’m different. I know that circumstances in our lives change us from what we once were to what we eventually become. This isn’t a new school of thought, it simply is.

This year has weighed heavy on me and my wife, which began with the death of my older brother Eddie. I thought I was his savior but my superpowers failed me. My enabling love for him was my Kryptonite, the more I tried the more I couldn’t.

This past June marked exactly one year since my wife has been unemployed. We’ve all been there in one form or another I realize that it’s just our turn right now. So we stay strong and move forward the best way we know how, with God first our daughter second the rest will follow and fall into place. It’s a struggle and as we stretch out our arms onto God we grow weary but not defeated. Pray for us.

Once again the dining room table is strewn with Adrianna’s school supplies of clothes, computer, bedding and the like. The routine is familiar and we’ve become wiser on what necessities really mean as evidence by the limited bags packed. She is ready and as we prepare the drop her off, the pang in our hearts can still be felt. I guess I was wrong in thinking that it goes away. It never does, the pang is softer, but it never goes away.

It’s her junior year and we’ve painstakingly talked about the importance of this year. It is the snapshot colleges will have to determine if she meets their criteria for acceptance. No pressure really. But I am okay for whatever happens. If I have learned one thing in 2014 it’s that you have to be ready for the change that life will inevitably throw your way.