It has been a long while since I last published on this
blog. So much has changed in my life that I can actually see the lasting
effects. I’m different. I know that circumstances in our lives change us from
what we once were to what we eventually become. This isn’t a new school of
thought, it simply is.
This year has weighed heavy on me and my wife, which began
with the death of my older brother Eddie. I thought I was his savior but my
superpowers failed me. My enabling love for him was my Kryptonite, the more I
tried the more I couldn’t.
This past June marked exactly one year since my wife has
been unemployed. We’ve all been there in one form or another I realize that
it’s just our turn right now. So we stay strong and move forward the best way
we know how, with God first our daughter second the rest will follow and fall
into place. It’s a struggle and as we stretch out our arms onto God we grow
weary but not defeated. Pray for us.
Once again the dining room table is strewn with Adrianna’s
school supplies of clothes, computer, bedding and the like. The routine is
familiar and we’ve become wiser on what necessities really mean as evidence by
the limited bags packed. She is ready and as we prepare the drop her off, the
pang in our hearts can still be felt. I guess I was wrong in thinking that it goes
away. It never does, the pang is softer, but it never goes away.
It’s her junior year and we’ve painstakingly talked about
the importance of this year. It is the snapshot colleges will have to determine
if she meets their criteria for acceptance. No pressure really. But I am okay
for whatever happens. If I have learned one thing in 2014 it’s that you have to
be ready for the change that life will inevitably throw your way.
